When I miscarried my first pregnancy, I needed something tangible to remember the little being who was growing inside me. I found a thin hammered gold ring and placed it inside my wedding band, closest to my heart.
When I miscarried again in January of this year, I thought about getting another band. In the end I decided one would be enough of a reminder for both.
Now, again, I need something tangible to hold on to. Not that I will ever forget Benjamin. Ever. My heart will always carry the joy and the scar. But I want something to hold, to wear, to start conversations, to show the world that I have a son, though no one will ever meet him.
I have wanted to order a necklace from Ausloe Design for over a year. I decided this would be a good time. I love that it’s hand made and that I can add to it in the future. For now, I simply wanted a charm and birthstone for each of my children. Cheryl cried with me on the phone when I ordered.
It arrived today.
I have my something tangible.
Melissa DeChandt says
What a beautiful necklace. Words can’t begin to express my sorrow for you and your family and the loss of baby Benjamin. You are in my thoughts daily….
You are gorgeous, my friend. Thank you for sharing.