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On turning 39

March 15, 2011 By Alana 6 Comments

Today is my birthday. I am now 39 years old. It’s been a beautiful, simple day, full of emails, phone calls and facebook messages. We visited a butterfly grove, where monarchs flitted through dappled sunlight. We hiked down to a rocky beach and collected sea shells. I found a large piece of aquamarine sea glass – an unusual color to find and March’s birthstone – a little wink and a nod from the Universe. Dinner was at my favorite little vegan restaurant and for the first time since I became an adult, did not involve a glass of wine or anything sweet. Random.org and I picked the winners* for my three giveaways and I’m writing this with a cup of ginger tea on hand. Simple. Beautiful. After hitting publish, I will meditate, walk the dog, dance and fall into bed with a smile on my face.

I am closing the door on the hardest year of my life and opening my heart to what is to come. My perspective has shifted once again. I remember turning 29 and feeling despair at all that I hadn’t accomplished. I look forward to 40 and think happily about all the things I still get to do.

In the wake of the devastation in Japan and with today’s simple happiness coursing through my veins, the refrain I hear is this – It doesn’t need to be my birthday for me to choose joy.

And while I didn’t get to stare into a little boy’s blue eyes, or hear him coo, I know somewhere, he is smiling and whispering, Happy Birthday Mama, I love you too.

*****

* Giveaway winners were as follows: #1 Roos, #2 Tiffany, #3 Pamela. Thank you all for playing and allowing me to give to you on the day when I received so much.

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  1. holly says

    March 15, 2011 at 7:59 pm

    Beautiful, Alana. I hear him too. 🙂

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  2. Stereo says

    March 15, 2011 at 11:39 pm

    Have the happiest of birthdays, Alana. You deserve it. We love you too.

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  3. Pamela says

    March 16, 2011 at 2:17 am

    You make me cry. Jeesh. What a gorgeous post full of contentment and grace. You are really amazing.

    Thank you for the book! Whoo hoo!

    xoxo

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  4. Christa says

    March 16, 2011 at 2:53 am

    Pamela said it well – jeesh. Beautifully felt and beautifully said.

    And from almost eleven years ahead of you, I can tell you it is all good, this over 40 thing.

    Happy, Happy Birthday, Alana. I look forward to watching you grow.

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  5. Roos says

    March 16, 2011 at 3:50 am

    “I am closing the door on the hardest year of my life and opening my heart to what is to come.”Ah… so beautiful! I think that within that devastating year, you already opened your amazing heart to all that lies ahead of you. Actually, I know.

    Lots of love from overseas! and how great that I won 🙂 in your give away!

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  6. Bob D. says

    March 16, 2011 at 10:20 am

    Happy B-Day (belated)! Good to hear it was so wonderful.

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