Steve said to me once, after a particularly wrenching cry, It seems as though, sometimes, you are mourning more than Benjamin’s death.
I think he might be right.
There are times when the sadness overwhelms, and my body leaps and shudders under the weight of my tears, that I see flashes of other times, other places, other losses.
I wonder if I’ve ever fully grieved anything.
I wonder if I can do it this time.
I hope that you can Alana! I think that it is hard to ever fully grieve such a loss. My first miscarriage I did NOT appropriately grieve and when the second one happened it was like the flood gates opened and both losses crashed into me at once… (((hugs))) <3
What wisdom there is here. Astonishing. I know you can.