Reverb10. December 24

Everything’s OK. What was the best moment that could serve as proof that everything is going to be alright? And how will you incorporate that discovery into the year ahead? (from Kate Inglis, author, blogger and fellow Baby Lost Mama)

Every day in 2010, every single day – I think – of this year from heaven and hell, there has been a moment where, despite the fear and trauma, I have been reminded that everything is not only okay, it is perfect and I don’t need to mess with it. I need to trust it. To live it. Every day. Moment to moment.

My baby died. All is well.

My leg broke. All is well.

I could have died. All is well.

I woke up today. I held my daughter. I laughed with my husband. I breathed deeply of the ocean air and sunlight. I made pie. All is well.

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Sometimes in my grief I forget that Steve, Ada and I are not the only ones who lost Ben. He has grandparents, cousins, friends. People who couldn’t wait to meet him. They are grieving too. Sometimes I forget.

To all of you who love him, or who have allowed yourselves to be touched by his short life, thank you. I’d love to know that you’re thinking of him. Know that I am thinking of you.

And for all of us, at this time of year, please take a moment to see everyone around you as a miracle, no matter how many buttons they are pushing. How can you make more room in your heart today? How can you turn toward love? Moment by moment.

Even when it isn’t,

All is well.