Category Archives: Life After Benjamin

Grace

Saturday night I drove into Los Angeles to meet Stereo and her Mister, on holiday from the UK. Whenever I can, I take the Pacific Coast Highway along the ocean. It’s slower but it’s beautiful and the drivers are less … Continue reading

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Remembrances

We are days away from the 10th anniversary of 9/11 and memories of grief hang in the air, like the fog that clouds many of my mornings here at the edge of the ocean. The events of that day gave … Continue reading

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My privilege

For the first time in my life, I love being asked what I do. I’m still finessing the language around what I say so that it makes sense to people, but the internal cringe that accompanied that question since I … Continue reading

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Clearing

Since last night I’ve been clearing and releasing, clearing and releasing, wracked with sobs that feel older than this lifetime. It’s been months since I’ve cried this hard. I know better than to question it. I crumple and allow myself … Continue reading

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This is me, excited.

Today I want to talk about the Picking Up the Pieces Retreat. I don’t know if you’ve read the retreat page yet but here’s what I’ve realized: my inherent strengths do not lie in writing great copy like the Kelly … Continue reading

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Surrender

Sunday night we returned from 9 days with my folks in Ithaca, NY. I had grand plans for our time there. Knowing how much fun my daughter and mother have together I figured I’d have plenty of time to write, … Continue reading

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This moment I wonder

What do I want to do? (with my whole heart) What’s dying to be born through me? (so much already has, and I’m feeling this question powerfully in my heart center) How can I feel more playful in my day? … Continue reading

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The ache

Today I’m taking my cue from Susannah Conway’s August Break and posting a picture. This is Ada, who decided she would try “Mutton Busting” at the county fair today. My heart pounded as she was helped into her padded vest … Continue reading

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Opening

Time feels odd to me right now – a bit like Salvador Dali’s painting The Persistence of Memory. The uber-famous, almost clichéd one with the melted clocks. There were days after Ben died when I would look at the calendar, … Continue reading

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One year

Benjamin Burton Sheeren born still July 29, 2010 1 lb, 1 oz 10 inches long perfect Son. Grandson. Brother. You are remembered. You are missed. You are loved.

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