I find myself, at the end of the day, looking back to see if I cried, how much I cried. There hasn’t been a day where tears haven’t flooded my eyes and yet, sometimes, I can’t remember if that’s true. I often can’t remember what happened thirty seconds ago.
I am not ready for there to be a day when I don’t cry. I am not ready for my eyes to be dry when my heart is overflowing.
I love you Ben. I miss you.
I do the same. I live most of my life in my baby loss blog and other’s similar blogs. I lose all concept of space and time. And I think…. did I cry? Most times the answer is yes. At some point in every day in the past 3 weeks I have cried. Benjamin knows he is loved. He knows is mommy is wonderful. I just know it! **hugs** to you!