I don’t know how long this cold will last and I know sleep is the biggest gift I can give myself.
I don’t know what today will bring and I trust there will be love, laughter and maybe a miracle or two.
I don’t know what people will say when I die and I believe being a force for love & compassion in the world is why I’m here.
I don’t know why grief is feeling so present again and as uncomfortable as it is, I trust that the timing is perfect.
I don’t know what kind of person my daughter will grow into and walking alongside her is the greatest gift of my life.
I don’t know how to create more space in my days and I know that because I want to, I will.
I don’t know what life will bring and I believe that even through the really hard stuff, the universe is on my side.
I don’t know anything, really, other than what I believe to be true sustains me. That surrendering control, taking inspired action and loving more are my keys to a happy life. That there is good in the world everywhere I look (even if I have to look below the surface). That we are all imperfect and doing the best we can in the moment.
I don’t know keeps me from being a know-it-all. It helps me go back to beginner’s mind and stay open to life’s lessons. It links me back up to I surrender, I receive and I trust. It helps me stay curious instead of shutting down when things aren’t going according to plan.
Letting go of the hunt for answers is both delicious and terrifying.
In theater school we were taught to live in the question. It’s ridiculously hard for us humans to do because we want security and clarity and guidance. As much as I am craving the when and the how and the why right now, standing squarely in I don’t know and remaining securely tethered to my desires is the best I can do.
Let the magic of the future unfold.