The sky lanterns I ordered came today. I wanted something to do on Ben’s due date. Something beautiful to send out into the world to help commemorate and celebrate his life. The lovely, talented and heartbroken Vera Kate posted this video on her blog and I fell in love. I won’t have thousands, but I will have something to send off into the sky.
Ada helped me open the packaging. She’s a big fan of using her scissors whenever possible. Her face lit up at the colorful paper and she asked what they were for. As I started to answer, my voice caught and tears spilled. She crawled into my lap and I pulled her close, explaining that had he lived, he was to be born next week and we will light the lanterns to celebrate the magnificence of his spirit and his too-short life.