In my meditations recently I’ve been caught up in frustration. Old, unwanted thoughts and feelings have been surfacing and dragging me back underwater. I’ve been unhappy during the day without understanding why. Three steps forward. Two steps back.
Last night the thought came – Children often appear to regress right before a developmental leap. Oh. Maybe that’s what’s happening with me. I can feel an energetic shift coming. It’s happening in fits and starts right now. I am sensing clarity right around the corner. I catch a glimpse. I can taste freedom, connection, alignment for a second and then it’s gone. I want to rush ahead, see what’s coming, be there already, wherever there is. Then I take a breath, remember to trust and in the words of Abraham, I feel gratitude for what is and eagerness for what is to come.
On a somewhat related note, I have been struggling with the news lately. I don’t read it or watch it but I do get emails from several organizations that send shudders up my spine. The fact that a 78 year old woman is receiving death threats and can no longer live alone because Glen Beck has her pegged as a public enemy for something she wrote in the 1960’s makes me want to
throw up rage give up cry. As I was shaking my head and feeling hopeless, Steve asked me what I was going to do with the information.
His question stayed with me all day.
By evening I’d made a decision. I joined the Global Reiki Healing Network. I can’t stop the hate directly, but I can join others in focusing on healing and peace, privately and in community. It is the Season for Nonviolence after all. Not that you’d know it.
What do you do when the state of the world gets you down? How do you renew your faith in humanity? How are you a force for good in the world?