Christmas Eve…all is well

Reverb10. December 24

Everything’s OK. What was the best moment that could serve as proof that everything is going to be alright? And how will you incorporate that discovery into the year ahead? (from Kate Inglis, author, blogger and fellow Baby Lost Mama)

Every day in 2010, every single day – I think – of this year from heaven and hell, there has been a moment where, despite the fear and trauma, I have been reminded that everything is not only okay, it is perfect and I don’t need to mess with it. I need to trust it. To live it. Every day. Moment to moment.

My baby died. All is well.

My leg broke. All is well.

I could have died. All is well.

I woke up today. I held my daughter. I laughed with my husband. I breathed deeply of the ocean air and sunlight. I made pie. All is well.

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Sometimes in my grief I forget that Steve, Ada and I are not the only ones who lost Ben. He has grandparents, cousins, friends. People who couldn’t wait to meet him. They are grieving too. Sometimes I forget.

To all of you who love him, or who have allowed yourselves to be touched by his short life, thank you. I’d love to know that you’re thinking of him. Know that I am thinking of you.

And for all of us, at this time of year, please take a moment to see everyone around you as a miracle, no matter how many buttons they are pushing. How can you make more room in your heart today? How can you turn toward love? Moment by moment.

Even when it isn’t,

All is well.

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6 Responses to Christmas Eve…all is well

  1. Liz says:

    You amaze me. I am overcome with this immense love for you, your baby Ben, your family, every time I read your words. Thank you for showing us that all is well.

  2. Spoken with such wisdom and love, Alana. Absolutely lovely.

    Have a blessed Christmas. Remembering you, each and all, today.

  3. Brad says:

    Sending big cyber-hugs your way.

  4. Bob D. says:

    Thanks for the lovely reminder. Happy Holidays.

  5. Stereo says:

    Beautiful perspective and reminder, Alana. We’re all touched by you and your story. Hope you are having a wonderful day <3

  6. miracles all around: moment by moment, movement by movement. a beautiful post penned by a beautiful woman. merry christmas, my friend.

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