Category Archives: Life After Benjamin

Beauty

I wrote last week about “my beauty”. I cringed a little as I wrote it, wondering if it would be misinterpreted, wondering if I needed an explanation or a disclaimer. I left it. It haunted me. Beauty is a loaded … Continue reading

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Raw – a reminder

I first published this post on November 30, 2010. It’s been calling to me in the quiet moments just before sleep. Here it is again – a reminder for us to be gentle with ourselves and each other. I wonder … Continue reading

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Shine

This morning Steve took Ada to school so I could have a little more time to myself. As I walked the ocean path with our dog, I found myself feeling the tiniest bit guilty for how happy I was to … Continue reading

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Floating

I’ve been a bit lost since the retreat ended. For many months after Benjamin died, my only goal was to get through the day and stay connected to my heart, my grief, my family. There was a purity to that … Continue reading

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A day to remember

October 15 is National Infant and Pregnancy Loss Awareness Day. Most people don’t know that, even if they’ve lost a baby. It gets overshadowed. No one wants to talk about dead babies. No one except the people who love them, … Continue reading

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A Year to Live

Last week I picked up Stephen Levine’s book, A Year to Live, a gift from one of the women who attended the retreat. I read the introduction, thought, What a great idea, and put it down. Actually, I dropped it … Continue reading

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The Girl Effect

This is my daughter on her 4th birthday: Her biggest worries at the time had to do with how many cupcakes she could eat and which birthday present to play with next. My concerns ran a little deeper but the … Continue reading

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Afterglow

I’ve been wanting to write about the retreat since it ended. I still haven’t found the words. Here are some the attendees used: moving healing divine inspiring so loving It was an honor to be in the presence of these … Continue reading

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Remembering

A reminder to myself – perhaps you need it too?   Find your true north. Stop doubting. Step into your power. Lead with humility. Learn with an open heart. Exude love.   Everything is possible.   All is well.

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Want to come to Ojai? (a huge gift for you)

Belief + Trust + Challenges + Strength + Beauty = my life right now. I am in final prep mode for the Picking Up the Pieces Retreat that begins in a week, here in Ojai. I am exhausted, excited, thrilled … Continue reading

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