Category Archives: Life After Benjamin

Lost-baby love, two years later

Today, Sunday July 29th, is the second anniversary of Benjamin’s death. Two years ago I let him go, cradled and cried over his tiny body, and let him go again. Two days ago I held his ashes and sobbed, missing … Continue reading

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Announcing…

The next Picking Up the Pieces Tele-Retreat is open for registration. It will run Tuesdays from September 11 through October 9th. I’ve also created a “Do-It-Yourself” version for those who prefer to do things on their own schedule. All the … Continue reading

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Doing it wrong

Tonight I lay with Ada in the basement of my brother’s house, waiting for her to fall asleep and feeling resentful. We’re in Edmonton and it’s light until after 10:30pm so the time between kids finally quieting down and adults … Continue reading

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Vacation

If there was just one thing I could tell you about living the life of your dreams, knowing that it would be enough if you understood it, I would ask you to realize that you already are. In the presence … Continue reading

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Your Brilliant Self

3 simple tips for living as your most brilliant self: 1. Forgive yourself. Forgive everyone else. We are all the walking wounded. 2. Begin to trust that you are exactly where you need to be to learn what you need … Continue reading

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M.I.A.

It’s been two months – two months – since my last post. The weeks have been full. A delicate juggling act that looked something akin to me standing at the edge of a cliff in pointe shoes balancing spinning plates … Continue reading

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Growing something big

Yesterday I ran into a woman I know who sees energy. She asked me if I was pregnant. I laughed and said no. (The thought of being pregnant and possibly seeing a drop of blood is still enough to make … Continue reading

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A revelation

I had coffee Monday morning with pleasure catalyst and fabulous new friend Kerrie Blazek. As she told me about a weekend retreat that had put her deeply in touch with her body, one thought circled my brain, demanding to be … Continue reading

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In service of my dreams

I loved – loved – putting together Picking Up the Pieces: thoughts on grief and growth, sending it out into the world and hearing how people’s lives are being positively impacted by it. And I wanted to take it a … Continue reading

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Filling the cup

This past weekend I’d planned to start a “40 Days of Giving” adventure leading up to my 40th birthday on March 15th. Then I realized that even though I loved the idea of it, adding it to my daily life … Continue reading

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