Name a person that would make you sweat if they showed up at your door?
Creative instigator extraordinaire Dyana Valentine asked me this question when we began working together. In a nanosecond my heart yelled, Danielle LaPorte, but I hesitated to say it out loud. They know each other well and it felt scary vulnerable to admit. Sidestepping a little, I came up with a few others – Wayne Dyer and Oprah and Lyle Lovett – but I wouldn’t really freak out if they showed up.
Okay maybe for Lyle.
I kinda feel like the other two would sit with me, we’d have a fascinating conversation and I’d end up feeling really good about myself, no matter what. Don’t get me wrong, it would rock my world to hang with them, but there’s something about Danielle that makes me think, Holy-Mary-Mother-of-God I’d have to show up. All of me. 100%. I would have to bring it to the table or she’d turn and walk away because she’s too busy rockin’ her own world – and ours – to waste time on someone who lets fear get in the way. And I am drawn to that like a moth to a flame because I want to show up. I want to bring all of me to the table and put it out for people to fill up on and I want the energy exchange that goes along with that. The energy exchange that brings both soul satisfaction and a steady flow of cash. That cash part that has been missing from my life since I became a mama.
There is something about the way Danielle thinks and writes about the world, about life and work and love, that makes me sit up and take notice. I’ve even thought, I want to be her when I grow up, (though we’re close to the same age). But I don’t. I want to be me. It took the death of my son and whole lot of work, but I finally feel like me. The me who shows up, inspires others, creates meaningful interactions, writes and speaks my truth and makes a great living doing it. The me who walks into a room of world changers and knows, beyond the shadow of a doubt, that I fit in. Inspired by Danielle, and Dyana, and so many others, I am showing up. In the biggest way I know how. 100%. All of me.
Available for download mid-July, Picking up the Pieces: thoughts on grief and growth.
…with more to come…